8.21.2014

30 Down, 15 To Go

In the grand scheme of things 45 days doesn't seem so long. In the grand scheme of things 45 days really isn't that long. But, when you're alone in the depths of 45 days it can certainly seem endless.

Marcus and I are on our 30th day of just the two of us. While most of the time has gone pretty fast, and seemingly, quite well, we still have 15 days to go before Scott returns from a work trip. 

We've done a good job at keeping ourselves busy. A two week stint in the Midwest surrounded by family and friends was huge. And currently we are beyond thankful to have more family here to hang with us for the next few days. That should keep us on our toes and keep us from counting down the minutes until we're reunited with Scott.

While we have had some really good times, just the two of us, we have had our fair share of those days…

One of the worst of those days was this past Sunday. After what was basically a perfect Saturday, Sunday was the Day From Hell. I can't quite put my finger on when or where the day fell to shambles, but shambles it was. I'm chalking most of the horrors up to a debilitating migraine that I couldn't shake for a large chunk of the day. At one point I put Marcus in his crib for an early nap, called Scott, and just broke down, bawling my eyes out. I think I said something to the effect of, "I just cannot do today anymore." And, quite frankly, I wasn't sure I could. 

After Scott talked me off the proverbial ledge, a solid nap on the little man's part, some quiet time to myself, and a heavy dosage of Extra Strength Excedrin, I had a pep talk with myself. It went something like this:
"Marcus is two. TWO. He will only be this little for today. Tomorrow he will be just a little bigger, an entire day older. Tomorrow will be better. But, for now, make the most of what is left of today." 

And, that's exactly what we did.
We finished off our day by taking a trolley ride…
Had ourselves a fancy little dinner date (because Lord knows I was not in any condition to turn on my oven)…
Grabbed some ice cream…
Had a good Skype session with Dad…
 And capped everything off with swimming as the stars emerged.
It wasn't our best day, but we made the best of it. 

He's my little man. He's my everything. And, though some days, like Sunday, are tough - really, REALLY tough - if I don't make the most out of this time RIGHT NOW I will have failed my job as his mommy.

We only have 15 days until Scott returns. We'll make it, and we'll make the most of it. 

20 comments:

  1. 45 days? Damn. You are allowed a meltdown for sure. At least you are almost there!

    P.S. what does Scott do for work that he's gone that long?

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  2. You're doing a great job! That's a long time. You'll all be reunited soon :)

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  3. Aww! You are doing a great job mama! It's amazing that you have already done a month without Scott- You've got this!

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  4. Where is your cape? You turned that sad day into a glad day -- you are the best!

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  5. You're doing an awesome job! Way to make the most of that crazy Sunday!

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  6. So sweet. This post made me tear up lady. Sometimes as a mom we just have to refocus and mentally start all over and boy you sure did. Here is hoping the next 15 days go by quickly with lots of good distractions. Your doing so great, keep at it!

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  7. Sending you hugs for sure! You're over 2/3 of the way there 15 days will fly by! I'm so glad you were able to reset your day and make it better (maybe not great but better). I have the hardest time doing that. Nap time helps a lot. But lady I don't think you're failing as a mom if you don't make the most of this time. I think some days are just hard. You do an amazing job at doing really awesome things with Marcus - an off day doesnt mean failing. it just means you are BOTH human. :) Hope today is a much more awesome day!

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  8. I have those days a lot. I always tell myself that some days are great and some days suck. You have to remember those good days during the sucky days to survive. It sounds like you turned a crappy day into a good one.

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  9. you are a wonderful mama and with such a beautiful heart.
    love your night swimming idea! preeeetttty jeal!
    you are doing better than i could! hugs mama!

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  10. So weird that you posted this today because I was actually thinking of you this morning and wondering how much longer you guys had to go. I don't know how you do it but I have crazy respect for you! You're an amazing mama and those type of days are more than warranted. Hell, I still have those days and I'm apart from Emma for 6-7 hours a day, 5 out of 7 days a week. Parenting definitely tests your limits and pushes your boundaries but that's what makes the good moments that much sweeter. Hang in there, lady. You're doing an awesome job!

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  11. WTG on salvaging the day!!! You're a rockstar mommy!

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  12. I had several of those bad days too while Paul was gone. Stay strong and those last couple weeks will go by faster than you can imagine. The end will bring such a sense of accomplishment that it will help make it all worth it in the end!

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  13. You are a rock star!!! My hubby isn't out of town and I have needed to be talked off a couple ledges! ;). You are right, they are two!!!! And we love them still!!! Hang in there!!

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  14. Some one recently told me that I should enjoy the rough days because like you said….he will grow out of them soon.

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  15. In our home, Michael goes out of town for two weeks twice a year every year for residency and while that seems like an eternity alone, I can't imagine 45 days. Girl. You are one strong, amazing, momma! I love the heartfelt emotion in this post but more, I love the attitude of making the best out of a not so hot situation. It would be so easy to just give up and you didn't so you know what that means, don't you? You made Sunday your "B"! Get it, girl. Get iiiiit.

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  16. We had one of those weekends.. I ended up giving up in Sunday and we had brownies for breakfast and a soft pretzel and fruit pouch for lunch from the Target cafe :/ You did a much better job of turning it around than I did!! You're a rockstar!

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  17. holy moly I freaked out over a week of being alone! I could not handle that long at all.

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  18. I know those single parent hard days all too well. But you made the very best of it and survived. And in reality, that single day was just a drop in the bucket.

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  19. Glad you turned your day around! I can imagine those certain days can be rough, but you are a rock star momma! 45 days is killer... I know that at some point you have got to be pushed past your limit. Luckily there is bed time and a fresh start in the morning. In June Mark was gone for like 20 days. And being that we live 1,000s of miles away from help, I thought I really was going to take a leap a couple times. He did really well the first week, but then I think he started to get bored with me and we were both on edge. But even just that little bit of me time really helps. Does he act out bc Scott is gone for a while? I feel like towards the end of whenever Mark is gone, Myles starts acting out a little. Good look with the rest of the days and I a joyous reunion!

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  20. Girl, you are a rockstar mom! You do the most fun things with Marcus. He is so lucky to have you as his mom! 45 days is s LONG time and you are doing a great job! Way to make the most of that Sunday!!! I need to have a pep talk like that with myself sometimes and make better use of my days.

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