4.03.2014

Try Not to Wish It Away

It's 7:00 a.m. and we are just peeling ourselves out of bed. Normally, 7:00 a.m. would be sleeping in for us. Except last night we were up, almost the entire night. There wasn't an hour on the clock that I didn't see. I'm pounding coffee like it's my last meal (because, in my world coffee is a meal).

Generally the little man will go down for naps and bedtime, no problem. This week has been so different than what we are used to.  In the last week it seems as if Marcus has hit a patch of sleep regression.

The past few days have been difficult. Really difficult. Marcus hasn't slept well, neither Scott nor I has slept well, Marcus has been really clingy and extra needy, and we've also had some pretty legit "terrible 2's" episodes.

I've found myself wishing we could just plow past this stage.

Then, just a few days ago I was in the rocking chair with Marcus. It was the only place the little guy would sleep during his nap (rocking for longer than 5 minutes is incredibly rare anymore). At first I kept wishing I could put him in his crib. I kept thinking of all the other things I'd rather be doing, as nap time is as crucial for Marcus as it is me.
After the first hour (yes, *hour*) of rocking my little man as he slept it hit me like a ton of bricks… I'd been spending so much time wishing away these moments that I'd forgotten just how amazing these moments really are.
There was a time, not so long ago, that I remember saying I wished days of rocking and snuggling for hours on end would never end. And, how all too quickly those days pass.
So, for the *last two hours* of nap time I peacefully rocked my sweet little boy. He needed me, and though it took a little while, I stopped wishing away the time and enjoyed soaking up our simple little moment.
For now, though our days have been rocky, I'm trying not to wish this time away.

16 comments:

  1. Thanks for making me cry!!!! I asked Brady every day if he will always want to snuggle with me even when he's 23. (Yes I know that's creepy, but I love snuggling with my babies). And Molly isn't much of a snuggler anymore. WTH?!?!

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  2. so sweet! it's so hard to cherish little times when they need us in ways we don't expect. I totally get the need for nap time and kudos to you for taking a moment and being in the moment at hand. :)
    I Do hope he gets back to his normal sleep habits soon. Is he teething or do you think it's the new house?

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  3. Awwwww love his little face. Do you think the move stressed him out a bit? Sometimes that can be hard on the kiddos. Or potentially molars? Just remember: it's just a phase momma!!

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  4. Seriously such an adorable face!! I would have to love on that cute little baby face and he would never get sleep!! :) You are so right...it goes so fast....so terribly fast.

    Laura @ Mice In The Kitchen

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  5. So sweet! You are an amazing mom.

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  6. I so needed to hear this today. Thank you for this post. We've had a very rough week sleep-wise too (is there a full moon or something?) and I've found myself in the same boat...rocking him but wishing I could be doing something else. I know he won't want me to rock him to sleep forever and I need to appreciate every second I have with his little body wrapped around mine. Thanks for the reminder.

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  7. They'll always need our touch and comfort. You have so many more moments ahead of you Des. Owen will be 9 soon. 9! His rocking has turned into back rubs. It's nice to know he still needs my comfort. Marcus looks so peaceful. I just love it when you share your mommy moments. You're never alone when it comes to mothers and their feelings, the good or the bad...

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  8. It is hard to remember not to wish the time away, but when you are sleep deprived and dealing with tantrums it is easy to wish. Has the move affected him? I know with each move Hannah has an adjustment period. Sometimes it wouldn't hit until we had been there a week or two.

    I am impressed you stayed awake! I always seem to nod off if I am trying to rock/sit with a sleeping child. :)

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  9. You are so right in this, never wish it away! Aiden will be 8 end of June, which means in another 8 years (the first 8 FLEW) he will be 16 and we won't see him around much b/c he'll be in sports and gone with his friends. That puts the time thing into perspective really quickly! Glad you realized this at age 2 and not age 10 or even 18 when he is leaving for college. The mess can wait!

    (And I'm w/ you, naps are not just for the littles, they are for Mommy's sanity also! I need that 2 hour break!)

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  10. This truly is the sweetest reminder!! I'm sorry it's such a hard stage right now (hopefully we can blame it on teeth??) but I also finding myself wishing the hard, frustrating, head butting moments away with Mia when really, it's going to be gone before I'm ready!! I love that you rocked and snuggled him for so long. You're an amazing momma!!

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  11. What a sweet little man you have there. Sometimes it is easier to wish away certain rough patches when I guess you should just soak them all in.. My oldest is going to be 15 and obviously he's not wanting to be rocked by his mom, thank goodness because he's 6'2. I just don't know where the time went. Keep rocking sweet Marcus until he won't let you anymore and then still try to convince him that he needs it a little longer.

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  12. awww, those lashes! I am always reminding myself of this too.

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  13. Thanks for the reminder, it's hard sometimes to remember that even the tough times are times we're going to cherish one day and that the 'other' things can sometimes wait.

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  14. Ugh I'm so sorry about the lack of sleeping lately! It is hard to enjoy the moments that are hard. So glad you were able to see the positive.

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  15. Serious goose bumps! I think that as humans we are always wishing time away and it's always nice to sit back and realize that the moment is more perfect than you imagined.

    Beautiful captures ... I want his eyelashes :)

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  16. Aww. So sweet! I needed to read this today. It's been a rough few days and it's so hard to just shut off the to do list in my head and BE in the moment!

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