12.10.2013

More Than Four Walls

The last five days have been… Interesting. Stressful. Overwhelming…

…Currently, we rent a town home. The place isn't huge, and if I conjured up pictures of what my dream home would look like, this probably would not be it. But, we live in a great neighborhood. We are close to everything we could ever want or need (beaches included). And our neighbors… Our neighbors are the best. Marcus loves our neighbors almost as much (some days it seems more) than us. It's almost impossible to find neighbors as great as ours.

We've made this little town house a home. We said good-bye to Seala, here. We added Izzy to the mix in this place. And, Marcus, made us a family, made us complete in this home. Every nook and cranny of this home holds memories of my little man; milestones he's reached, laughs he has provided, tears we've all shed.

Last Friday after speaking with our landlord we discovered she's decided after the new year to put our home on the market. We're not sure whether or not we can stay… Moving is a very real possibility, and I'm struggling to accept that we may be packing and boxing up in a few short months.

The last few nights as I have rocked Marcus to sweet dreams I couldn't help the tears that fell. His room. His toys. His finger prints on the mirrors. There is just so much more to this home than four walls and a roof. This place holds a story. Ours.

It might not be my dream home, but so many dreams have come true in this little house we call home.
I never thought I would say it, but I love this place.

19 comments:

  1. I felt the same way when we left our home in Ohio. It was the home we became husband and wife in, it holds the living room I told James we were pregnant in and it was the home we brought Connor home from the hospital to. It's a hard transition. But it doesn't matter what your address is, you'll always have your memories and the next place you call home will soon be filled with new memories.

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  2. This is written so well and I even teared up a little. It is hard moving on to a new place and maybe you will stay. Just know that you will create memories wherever you go!

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  3. So sweet and yep, it's the memories that make a home! :)

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  4. I felt the same wa when we moved from our little 1 bedroom rental house to our current 2 bedroom back in March of 2012. Marissa's whole first year of life and then some happened in that tiny little house. as well as our first two and a half years of marriage. the good, the bad, and the ugly. luckily those memories will be there forever.
    and ironically, last thursday our landlords too decided that they would be putting our rental house on the market once the new year roles around... my hormones are still out of whack and the thought makes me sick. not something a pregnant woman wants to hear.

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  5. I feel your pain. We rent and our landlord has made it known that they don't want to own two properties forever. I'm afraid everyday that they will put it up for sale to try to push us into buying it. It's the first place that felt like home for the three of us and there are too many memories in our little shoebox to just pack them up and leave. It hurts me to think about it, so really. I feel your pain. Hoping everything works out for you guys.

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  6. This is so sweet. I can totally see how moving would be hard. We live in the same house that we bought right before we got married. It has tons of memories and though we would like to move in the next 2 years or so, it will be sad to say goodbye to our first home.

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  7. Oh no! I totally get what you mean though. The house may not be perfect, but it's your HOME. That's how I feel about mine--I can pick out flaws all day long and dream of our perfect future kitchen, bathroom, yard. But when I actually think of leaving our HOME full of memories, I freak out a bit. Hope everything works out the way you want!

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  8. i can't imagine! but i can. we talk about moving out of our town home before crue starts school and even tho i am SO EXCITED for a new home i already get weepy about leaving here, the place isaiah bought right after college - where i moved in when we were dating, got our first puppies and brought crue home too! when i sit in his nursery i get the most sad because we re-did everythingggg in that room. i can't imagine leaving on such a short notice :( so sorry mama!

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  9. I know how you feel. I promise if you have to move your new home will be filled with memories quickly. We have moved so much and now we look back and reminisce on where we use to live. Now to the point I start to get the moving itch once we are in one place too long. :)

    You are right...good neighbors are super hard to find!!

    Laura @ Mice In The Kitchen

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  10. I understand! My house in Kansas was tiny, but it held so many memories for me. It is tough to leave behind those sacred places.

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  11. Oh no that is such a bummer! Hopefully you guys can stay!

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  12. I'm so sorry to read this. I hope that somehow you'll be able to stay. I felt the same way about our house in Albany. It was so hard to leave it and I still think about it.

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  13. Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this. Home holds such special memories for everyone. Is there anyway you guys can buy it from her? Or perhaps do a rent to own deal?

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  14. Aww. My heart breaks for you! This made me tear up :( The other day when I resigned our lease I asked for a five year lease (sadly, they don't do those). I know we will eventually, but I never want to leave this apartment! It's old, but it's big and cheap and the location is great. And most importantly, there were so many firsts here!!

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  15. Oh...I know exactly how you feel! When Avery was born we were renting out my grandparent's house, and we lived there until Avery was one. When my dad and my uncles had to sell that house we ended up buying our own house. I was so SO sad to move though. We brought Avery home to that house, she took her first steps there, and even before that I remember being a little kid running around that house for holidays and family dinners. We have so many happy memories from our new house, and we still drive by the old house so Avery can see it. And it was wonderful to get the live there with her for the first year of her life.

    Thinking of you guys, and hoping that everything works out the way it's supposed to. : )

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  16. We're in the same boat! We're renting a town home here on base, but we're moving in March. I would love an extra bedroom, and I have been complaining about the linoleum kitchen floors and one-car garage for three years now… but it's our home! Now I am so sad to think it's our last Christmas here, and after the new year we will have to start house-hunting and finding a new home :(

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  17. I'm so sorry, Desiree! I hope that things will work out so you can stay...so many sweet memories!

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  18. I so can empathize with how you feel. We moved a couple of years ago, by choice. As we began to pack, I started to think of all of the memories and the comfort we felt there. I shed lots of tears but in the end, the new house was just the start of lots of new memories, while cherishing those older ones!

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  19. Awwww Desiree!!! Buy the house!!!! Those memories are something not to forget!!!!

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